kingnovel Chapter 1136 Xingyu's wish: I want to live a good life with you
Chapter 1136 Xingyu's wish: I want to live a good life with you
Su Xingya's eyes wandered around in panic, and inadvertently, she caught a glimpse of the burning desire suppressed in Gu Yunqian's eyes, like a volcano about to erupt, ready to burst out.
At that moment, her heartbeat suddenly quickened and her brain went blank for a moment. Without any hesitation, as if driven by an invisible force, she stood on tiptoe and gently pressed her lips against Gu Yunqian's Adam's apple.
Gu Yunqian was obviously startled by this sudden action and let out a muffled groan from his throat.
Su Xingya did not stop. She quickly held Gu Yunqian's face with both hands, and then, without hesitation, pressed her lips heavily on him with a desperate determination.
Perhaps it was because of the confession she had just made that made the long-suppressed emotions in her heart burst out like a flood;
Perhaps it was the pain and torture she had experienced during this period that made her urgently need an outlet to vent.
At this moment, she just wanted to hold the man in front of her tightly and tell him in her own way that she loved him.
For a moment, the two seemed to forget everything, expressing their love to each other in a wild yet restrained manner.
Gu Yunqian's breathing became more and more rapid, and his hands unconsciously began to unbutton his clothes, as if he wanted to release the passion that had been suppressed for so long.
However, just when the two were unable to control their emotions and had a little distance between them to catch their breath, reality was like a loud slap in the face, waking them up.
Su Xingya's eyes swept towards the child who was still sleeping on the hospital bed, and her heart shuddered. This was a ward and the child was still sick. How could they indulge in a love affair at this time?
In an instant, they regained their senses, and a trace of panic and guilt flashed in their eyes. They quickly straightened their clothes and tried to calm their still agitated emotions.
The ward fell into silence again. Only the child's weak breathing and the two people's heartbeats that had not yet calmed down echoed in this small space, telling the story of the thrilling but inappropriate passion just now...
In the ward, the lights were dim and soft, but they could not dispel the depression and heaviness that permeated the air.
The smell of disinfectant became increasingly pungent in this quiet space, as if mercilessly reminding this family of the ups and downs they had experienced.
Su Xingya leaned quietly on Gu Yunqian's chest, her body trembling slightly, like a leaf shivering in the cold wind.
She raised her head, her eyes full of fatigue and helplessness, but also with a hint of determination, and said softly: "I want to live a good life with you."
The sound was not loud, but in the silent ward, it was like a heavy hammer, hitting Gu Yunqian's heart.
Gu Yunqian, who was originally looking ahead with empty eyes, suddenly paused after hearing these words, then slowly lowered his head and looked at Su Xingya in his arms.
His eyes were as complex as a deep black hole, filled with pain, confusion, disappointment, and a hint of unspeakable struggle.
His lips trembled slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but he swallowed it back.
His hands tightened unconsciously, holding Su Xingya tightly, as if he was afraid that if he let go, she would disappear into his world again.
However, his brows were tightly furrowed, with the space between his eyebrows forming a deep "川" character, and the blue veins on his forehead were slightly bulging, showing his extreme inner unrest.
Gu Yunqian's thoughts were like a wild horse running wildly.
He thought back to the past. Five years ago, their love was like a farce full of ups and downs, full of suspicion, misunderstanding and quarrels.
And now, everything seems to have returned to the starting point, except that there is one more innocent child.
He couldn't help but wonder, what was Su Xingya thinking when the image of leaving with her child appeared in her mind?
Was it the appearance of Han Zhiyuan, a woman who was both talented and able to help her in her career, that made Su Xingya feel ashamed and determined that she was doomed to fail in this complicated emotional entanglement, and ultimately had no choice but to leave?
Or maybe she is worried that if it really comes to that, and the child is left to face the stepmother, the child's future will be full of hardship and pain?
Now it seems the answer is yes...
However, Gu Yunqian's heart was filled with helplessness and bitterness. Why didn't she understand that real life was not as simple as she imagined? How could those fabricated stories be applied to real life at will?
The complexity and triviality of life cannot be summarized by a few simple conjectures.
Gu Yunqian took a deep breath, trying to calm his frantic heartbeat, but his heart felt as if it was being tightly grasped by an invisible hand, and it ached badly.
He was really tired. This exhaustion was not only physical, but also a mental torture that went deep into his bones.
He felt as if he was in an endless vortex, struggling constantly but unable to find a way out.
He looked at Su Xingya, and the fatigue and disappointment in his eyes became more and more intense.
He had seen her being so erratic and anxious many times. This time, because of her, the child had a high fever. What about next time?
Will this family be plunged into chaos and pain again because of some unfounded thought?
He didn't dare to think any further, his heart was filled with fear and confusion about the future, as if the road ahead was shrouded in a thick fog and he couldn't tell the direction at all.
Once upon a time, no matter how Su Xingya made a fuss or how willfully she wanted to escape, Gu Yunqian would follow her regardless of everything, to the ends of the earth, and never leave her.
At that time, he only had love for her in his heart, and he firmly believed that as long as he persisted enough, he could protect this relationship.
But now, with a child, the situation is completely different.
He didn't dare to gamble as recklessly as before, because he couldn't let his newborn child grow up in a broken and unstable family environment.
The child is innocent, and he cannot let the child suffer the pain that he shouldn't have to endure.
Since then, the two of them fell into a silent understanding. They said nothing, but just stayed quietly beside the child, waiting for the child to recover and be discharged from the hospital.
The days passed one by one in this depressing atmosphere, as if time was also solidified by this heavy atmosphere.
Finally, on this day, the child fell asleep slowly under Gu Yunqian's gentle comfort.
Gu Yunqian gently put the child down and tucked the quilt for him, his eyes full of tenderness and love. Then, he stood up, walked to the table beside him, picked up a stack of papers, and walked to Su Xingya with heavy steps.
There was a determination in his eyes, a decision he made after countless struggles.
He silently handed the paper in his hand to Su Xingya. Su Xingya looked up, and the moment her eyes touched the stack of papers, her gaze froze, and the blood color on her face instantly faded, turning as pale as paper.
That was the divorce agreement. In the past, it was Su Xingya who put the divorce agreement in front of Gu Yunqian again and again, but now, the roles were completely reversed, and Gu Yunqian took the initiative to hand the agreement to her.
At this moment, the air in the ward seemed to freeze, and time also stood still.
Su Xingya's hands trembled slightly. She wanted to reach out to take it, but stopped in mid-air, as if it was not a stack of papers, but a hot iron that made her dare not touch it.
Gu Yunqian stood there quietly, looking ahead with empty eyes, his face expressionless, as if he had exhausted all his emotions.
This scene formed a sharp and cruel contrast, which deeply hurt Su Xingya's heart and filled the entire ward with an atmosphere of sadness and helplessness.